I am linking up again this week with Casey for "What Is On Your Heart" Fridays.
Today, the same thing is on my heart that has been on my heart every Friday and every other day of the week for the past....two years.
My heart is aching to be a mommy again. Like SERIOUSLY aching.
I feel like I write these posts all the time and end it with some motivating words about how this is the month or even just the year we will get pregnant again. Then the time comes and no one talks about it and we go another year as a family of three.
I am so lucky that my hubby is on the same page about kids. We want lots. Having Aidan changed our lives. It grew our hearts more than we ever could have imagined.
Every time we think the time is right, something changes. We loose our insurance, my parents remind us they don't think we are in the right place to have any more children, life happens and we over analyze and talk ourselves out of it.
I am tired of the everyday question "When are you going to have another one." It's painful enough to ask myself over and over in my head. I just don't know the answer to that.
So instead of putting a time frame on it, I just want to say...IT'S ON MY HEART. I'm ready. I'm not going to try to answer the question anymore. I'm letting go and leaving it to God.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"
Jeremiah 29:11
When you make babies this cute how could you not want more! =)
om gracious those pics!!!!!!!! girl, i know. i just had ainsleigh and im already aching for another. like really bad. i dont know what ill do when i know its the last one!!!!! this is so sweet. glad to know so i can be praying for peace ab this sweet friend!
ReplyDeletewhat a sweet little man!! when the baby bug bites, it bites hard!!
ReplyDeletei feel ya on that one ;)
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I know how you feel so much! My heart has been aching for to start a family for a over a year now. Unfortunately the hubby is applying to grad schools for the fall of 2012 and we just don't think it is practical to have so much debt and start a family. I just worry all this putting it off is going to bite me in the end. Ugh...such a hard thing to debate. Thinking about you!
ReplyDeleteI understand your heart ache. God's perfect timing and grace is all I can tell you :)
ReplyDeleteI needed this verse!
ReplyDeleteI have 3 and have realized there is no perfect time, just God's time. You will know. My OB always jokes that I'm the kind of mom that could just keep going. I love babies and being a mom. Now that my youngest is 3, I get the itch too. I admire you are giving this desire to God and trusting that he'll guide you on this one.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to send some love your way, friend. I have been SOOO behind on your blog, but I have read all of them even though I didn't comment. Loved your "men aren't all bad" post and of course, all of your pics of Aidan. Yes, he's naturally cute but his stylist is the best!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing what's on your heart.